Friday, March 11, 2011

update

it's been awhile since i've blogged, and i'm sorry about that, but it's been hectic since griffin came home and i just didn't know what to say. griffin came home on 2/16/2011 after 27 days in the NICU. we had an amazing recovery and i feel very lucky, but i also feel a little bit guilty because there are so many gastroschisis moms that don't get this lucky. anyway, it's been a roller coaster having griffin home, but it's been amazing. he's adorable. we just love him. scott is the most amazing dad ever. he is so involved and wants to do everything. it's great. he gets up in the middle of the night, and i never have to ask him to do anything, he just does it. he is so attentive and in love with griff... it's the cutest thing ever. i love seeing the two of them cuddled up on the couch
this was taken the day he came home


daddy kisses

little sleepy monster

my two boys. so so cute.

mommy snuggles
(the day i dyed my hair, yes it's dark now, but not this dark)

big yawn

such an adorable sleeper

more daddy snuggles

we have a follow up with UCSF on weds 3/16. i'm fairly certain griffin has a hernia, which is really common with gastro babes. typically the surgeons won't do anything until after the first year, because sometimes the hernias will fix themselves, but the thought of another surgery just rocks me to my core. we'll find out more on wednesday. and i'm not even 100% sure it is a hernia, but my instinct says hernia so i'm going to go with that.



Sunday, February 20, 2011

birthday birthday birthday

another birthday wish list post. now that i'm not quite out of maternity clothes but not quite fitting into pre-pregnancy clothes i spend a lot of time online staring at clothes and accessories that look cozy and easy to clean (or effortlessly chic for that rare night out with scott)
ugh, i wish... could you imagine putting diapers in that?


i love this for a night out

this t-shirt would be easy to bleach when the baby drools on it

i like this sweater because it's basic black but still fun

black t-shirts will hide stains (babies are messy)

this just looks cozy for cuddling griffin

because everyone should have a pair of nude pumps

amazing knee high frye boots


i'm a little bit obsessed with boots





Wednesday, February 9, 2011

Griffin


griffin is the best thing that's ever happened to us. scott & i love him so much. he's perfect. it's hard to not have him home, but the hardest part is not knowing when he'll be home. it feels like we're just waiting. this whole process is just waiting. griffin is up to 25ccs of breast milk every 3 hours. he's handling it very well, and pooping on his own. hopefully today he'll be increased up to 30ccs (which is 1 ounce) every three hours. every day they raise it by 5ccs and see how he handles it. so far we've been able to raise it every day since he started eating, which is great. we might get stuck at a certain amount while his intestines figure it out, but we also might be fine with increasing the feeds. it's all up to griff and his body. he's doing very well and we are very lucky with his progress so far. it is rarely this easy for gastroschisis babies, so right now we are doing very well. if it keeps up i'll feel like the luckiest mom in the world. i'm not holding my breath though, this is very rare and a part of me is just waiting for setback. scott & i talked to the doctors about what we have to get to before we get to bring him home... what goals we're looking for. they told us that we have to get griffin up to 60ccs (2 ounces) every 3 hours. once he's there (and pooping regularly) then they'll feed him on demand, meaning that he dictates when he wants to eat and how much he wants. if he wants to wait 4 hours he can, if he wants to eat every 2 hours he can. it'll be on his schedule. once he proves he can gain weight, poop regularly, and properly eat on demand we can take him home. that'll be the best day of my life! i can't wait to get him home with us. scott & i are hoping that he's home by my birthday. he has 20 days until then, and it'd be the best birthday present ever!

Monday, January 31, 2011

birth story

so i feel as if i need to write down everything before i forget it. my labor story is long; it started on tuesday, january 18th at 9am and ended on thursday, january 20th at 6:42am with griffin being born. scott & i went to the hospital for an amnio on monday, january 17th at 7:30am. by the time we got home from SF, the doctor called to say the lungs were mature and we would induce the next day. we got a phone call at 6:30am on tuesday saying that they were ready for us at Kaiser SF. we got situated into my hospital room at 9am on the 18th. at 11am they started me on cytotec, a drug used to help dilate the cervix. you can have up to 6 doses of cytotec and you take it every 4 hours. after 4 doses and 20 hours i was only 1/2cm dilated. so the doctors decided to stop the cytotec and start with plan b. they inserted a foley catheter with a deflated balloon at the end of it. once inserted, the balloon is then inflated with saline. when the balloon falls out you're about 3-4cm. this was inserted at 7am on wednesday 1/19. for a good portion of the day i was still only 1/2cm dilated. the doctors started talking to me about going home and trying again the following week. i was NOT having that. i could not go through it all again a week later. we were having this baby!! i was determined. they decided to start the pitocin to see if it would help me dilate. around 3pm the foley was able to fall out and i could slightly feel my contractions from the pitocin. i was 3cm dilated, and we were on our way to baby! the contractions started getting stronger around 5pm and i decided to start trying the techniques we learned in birthing class. we "danced", lunged, rocked, and i even sat in the shower for awhile (that was amazing!) and let the water hit my back. it helped, for a little while, but the contractions got worse and worse. at around 7:30pm my water broke. it was meconium stained. the contractions got unbearable after my water broke. i could barely breathe. i just held the side of the hospital bed and moaned. scott tried to get me to breathe, but i couldn't do it. so i opted to try fentanyl. it worked for about two contractions, but then the contractions felt so much worse. at that point i knew i was ready for my epidural. i was 5cm dilated (my personal goal to reach before the epidural) and ready for some pain relief. what a great decision! my epidural took immediately and i felt so much better. it was 8:3opm and i needed some sleep. the doctors were checking me every 2 hours. at 2am on thursday the 20th i had a fever, was shaking, and was put on oxygen to help the baby. i was only 6cm. i knew the epidural would make the labor last longer, but i thought i'd be further along. at 4am dr. devoy said that she was hoping to deliver my baby and was sad that it didn't look like she was going to get that chance (her shift ended at 7:30am). she said "well, i guess there's still time" and i said i hoped that she'd be delivering the baby too. by 4:30am i felt immense pressure and knew i needed to be checked. i called for the doctors. i was 8cm. they said they'd be back in two hours to check me again, and decided that they would move me to the OR at 6am where I could finish my labor. they wanted me to deliver in the OR because it was a bigger space for all the doctors that would be at the delivery. at 5:30 i started feeling like i was getting close to pushing. they moved me to the OR. it was just me, scott, our doula and the nurse. i was shaking and puked. it was very glamorous. at 6:15 i wanted to push, but dr. devoy told me to wait until the baby descended further. at 6:30am i couldn't wait anymore. i needed to push. scott and our nurse held my legs so i could push. a few minutes later the nurse was calling the doctors into the room. he said "i can see hair". i couldn't believe i was so close to meeting the baby. i thought i'd be pushing for hours and hours. all of a sudden there were doctors everywhere, but i barely noticed them. i pushed a few more times and then all of a sudden griffin was there at 6:42am after about 15 minutes of pushing. he wasn't crying, he was just stretching in Dr. Devoy's arms. he looked a little dozed, as if we'd woken him up from a nap. he was taken to the next room immediately and scott followed to take pictures. then he was wheeled in to see me. it was so great to meet him. i held his little hand and was so happy. i'd never been so happy. i loved him immediately. he was adorable and i was so relieved that he was finally here.

Tuesday, January 25, 2011

Griffin Reed Westerman

born Thursday, January 20th at 6:42 am.
taking a little hiatus from the blog while we adjust to life in the NICU and as new parents

Saturday, January 8, 2011

january


january is national birth defect awareness month. just thought you all should know.